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bobsmyuncle · 01-01-2007, 01:46 PM

Just venting

I came home after a morning walk and running errands. I sat down on the couch and started watching Airplane and a restless emotion came down on me. A sudden urge to smoke came down and I went to get them. After 3 years of not even a single fag I started smoking like a high school junior!

2006 was a sh1t year; I went to five funerals and two weddings as if that is any contrast! Two funerals got to me, both are murder! One is the father of my childhood friend, a man that we all wanted to be our own father. He was shot during a robbery; the other is a hit and run. This happened in the beginning of 2006, and being the man you should be you keep composure and tune out. Yet the mind has a funny way of purging these things nestled in the subtext. So yes it does bother me, and maybe the fact that today is 01/01 broke something down. Well one other thing, the hair that broke the camels back is; a friend of mine on Dec 7 put a 45 in his mouth. He was 22! The nephew of my training partner, and at one time my sparring partner. A week earlier he came home to discover his GF with another man, we told him that Puzzy is just Puzzy you’ll get over it. He was a good looking kid, junior in college, had a good job. In all accounts he would have been the azzhole you hate driving down the street in a new BMW with a hot gurl..

So as I finish the last cig, I try not to ponder too much into things. But man 06 suck azzzzzzz!

brian40 · 01-01-2007, 01:54 PM

Well, as I crack another cheap beer, I wish you a much better 2007!

Good luck.

**XDAndMe** · 01-01-2007, 01:58 PM

I'm very sorry you had such a bad year. May your friends RIP.

I have to say though, I don't understand the suicide over a girl. I can understand being upset, but never will I ever kill myself over a girl. That's really sad.

slugger6 · 01-01-2007, 02:48 PM

Under the burden of everything you described in your post you might want to consider getting some professional help. Sometimes the load becomes too heavy to bear alone. We are always here if you feel the need to connect.

sermon8r · 01-01-2007, 07:13 PM

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Originally Posted by slugger6

Under the burden of everything you described in your post you might want to consider getting some professional help. Sometimes the load becomes too heavy to bear alone. We are always here if you feel the need to connect.

+1

SoCalXD · 01-01-2007, 07:35 PM

Tragic Deaths of friends and family are really difficult to handle, especially when due to violence. Overwelming feelings of helplessness occur, since we are helpless to control these things. Best self help you can do is exercise and projects. Walk the dog every day, hit the gym a few times. Use the tradgedies to re-evaluate your own priorities. Get to the shooting range and do some competitions for pure enjoyment, do that project you've been putting off. Plan on 2007 to be a better year and look forward to it, since the chances of it being worse are slim to none!

My condolences for your losses. Keep them in your heart and visit them often with happy rememberance.

bobsmyuncle · 01-01-2007, 08:39 PM

Thanks

I know life aint easy and at times the storm just comes in and all you can do is wait it out and survive. but I know myself enough that what's on my surface may not reflect whats going on under the hood. This will pass and will be filed away to lament over beer in the future.

I can deal with most of what happend, but the suicide got to me becouse I'v been there. Anyone who has ever dated run the risk of having a bum relationship but you move on. He was 22, smart and it was not like he could not get a date. Hell some gurls we knew were glad he was back on the market. What struck me is the reason... I can understand putting your life to save a life, I can even understand a soldiers choice not be captured, but over poon... man

I really dont get that..I mean I'v been sad, and in deep depression over a gurl but never to that extent. hell I know even ugly guys like me get laid. But this guy..

I DONT GET IT (I will leave it at that)

Gator · 01-01-2007, 08:47 PM

As long as you get up in the morning and are able to pull on your own boots, every day has the potential to be the best day of your life.

**Majk** · 01-02-2007, 09:54 AM

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Originally Posted by Gator

As long as you get up in the morning and are able to pull on your own boots, every day has the potential to be the best day of your life.

Even without your boots you can still have a great day or be alight in someone else's life. Plenty of disabled people have exceptional days and bring allot to others.

01-01-2007, 01:46 PM	#1
bobsmyuncle XDTalk 100 Member Join Date: May 2006 Posts: 166	Something off my chest Just venting I came home after a morning walk and running errands. I sat down on the couch and started watching Airplane and a restless emotion came down on me. A sudden urge to smoke came down and I went to get them. After 3 years of not even a single fag I started smoking like a high school junior! 2006 was a sh1t year; I went to five funerals and two weddings as if that is any contrast! Two funerals got to me, both are murder! One is the father of my childhood friend, a man that we all wanted to be our own father. He was shot during a robbery; the other is a hit and run. This happened in the beginning of 2006, and being the man you should be you keep composure and tune out. Yet the mind has a funny way of purging these things nestled in the subtext. So yes it does bother me, and maybe the fact that today is 01/01 broke something down. Well one other thing, the hair that broke the camels back is; a friend of mine on Dec 7 put a 45 in his mouth. He was 22! The nephew of my training partner, and at one time my sparring partner. A week earlier he came home to discover his GF with another man, we told him that Puzzy is just Puzzy you’ll get over it. He was a good looking kid, junior in college, had a good job. In all accounts he would have been the azzhole you hate driving down the street in a new BMW with a hot gurl.. So as I finish the last cig, I try not to ponder too much into things. But man 06 suck azzzzzzz!

01-01-2007, 01:54 PM	#2
brian40 XDTalk 1K Member Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Nebraska Posts: 1,527	Well, as I crack another cheap beer, I wish you a much better 2007! Good luck. __________________ Brian "Did I say that outloud?"

01-01-2007, 07:35 PM	#6
SoCalXD XDTalk 500 Member Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: San Diego, CA Posts: 516	Tragic Deaths of friends and family are really difficult to handle, especially when due to violence. Overwelming feelings of helplessness occur, since we are helpless to control these things. Best self help you can do is exercise and projects. Walk the dog every day, hit the gym a few times. Use the tradgedies to re-evaluate your own priorities. Get to the shooting range and do some competitions for pure enjoyment, do that project you've been putting off. Plan on 2007 to be a better year and look forward to it, since the chances of it being worse are slim to none! My condolences for your losses. Keep them in your heart and visit them often with happy rememberance. __________________ My XD-40's: Duty, IDPA & Home-Defense: Tactical: Springer Trigger & Slide Release, Dawson Adj. Tritium Sights, Full Cobra Chrome, CC Mag Release, D.G.R., 16# Spring, Magloc Magwell w/full beveling, Pachmayr Mag Bumpers, Insight 3X w/contured remote. EFK 9mm Conversion Barrel for IDPA & Training. CCW: SC: Springer Trigger & Slide Release, TFOs, Canyon Creek Mag Release, Pearce Extensions, Sand Decal Grips.

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Gator XDTalk 100 Member Join Date: Dec 2006 Location: colorado Posts: 383	As long as you get up in the morning and are able to pull on your own boots, every day has the potential to be the best day of your life. __________________ NRA MEMBER G.O.A. MEMBER

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01-01-2007, 01:58 PM	#3
XDAndMe XDTalk 3K Member Join Date: Sep 2006 Location: PA, USA Posts: 3,402	I'm very sorry you had such a bad year. May your friends RIP. I have to say though, I don't understand the suicide over a girl. I can understand being upset, but never will I ever kill myself over a girl. That's really sad.

01-01-2007, 02:48 PM	#4
slugger6 XDTalk 20K Member Join Date: Dec 2006 Location: Ohio Posts: 20,102	Under the burden of everything you described in your post you might want to consider getting some professional help. Sometimes the load becomes too heavy to bear alone. We are always here if you feel the need to connect.

01-01-2007, 08:39 PM	#7
bobsmyuncle XDTalk 100 Member Join Date: May 2006 Posts: 166	Thanks I know life aint easy and at times the storm just comes in and all you can do is wait it out and survive. but I know myself enough that what's on my surface may not reflect whats going on under the hood. This will pass and will be filed away to lament over beer in the future. I can deal with most of what happend, but the suicide got to me becouse I'v been there. Anyone who has ever dated run the risk of having a bum relationship but you move on. He was 22, smart and it was not like he could not get a date. Hell some gurls we knew were glad he was back on the market. What struck me is the reason... I can understand putting your life to save a life, I can even understand a soldiers choice not be captured, but over poon... man I really dont get that..I mean I'v been sad, and in deep depression over a gurl but never to that extent. hell I know even ugly guys like me get laid. But this guy.. I DONT GET IT (I will leave it at that)